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To Know Me Could Be Fatal

To Know Me Could Be Fatal

 

Everyone out there that knows me might want to disassociate themselves from me for awhile, especially if you are of the superstitious type.  It seems that people that are close to me are dying.  First it was Khany, now my best friend BJ (Barry Jacob Wand), who lives lived in the US just died.  We were best friends for a little over 30 years (Oct 1982).  Do you want to know what sucks the most though?  It sucks that there is no way for me to get back to the US to be at the funeral.  His daughter told me that they will be cremating him on Monday so even if we had the money to go there, we probably couldn’t get a flight fast even to get there in time.  He has been having complications with his diabetes and I think that finally got the best of him.  He was already confined to a wheelchair recently and he was none too happy about that, but he was getting by.

I keep thinking that maybe if I was there I could have done something.  I suppose most people think that way though. Maybe I could have kept his hopes up or helped prevent the diabetes to start with or something.  I don’t know what, but something.  In reality, there is probably nothing I could have done unless I had a time machine and could go back after I found out everything that will happen.

When we first met him Lita and I arrived at Kadena AB in Okinawa for our first tour of duty overseas.  We kind of hit it off pretty quickly especially since he was married to a filipina also.  You see the Air Force will have sponsors help you get settled in at a new base and take you around to places.  BJ was not the one assigned as my sponsor, but he came by with his car in case we had too much luggage for the guy that was our sponsor.  That’s the type of guy he was.  As it turns out we did have too much luggage for Doug’s (our sponsor) car.  Even though Doug did help us get settled in a bit, BJ is the one that helped us the most.

The last time I saw him was this past July when we were in Texas.  If it wasn’t for him, we probably would not have even saw him then.  If you remember from our trip, we were pretty busy with the storage, Lita’s social security and our medical appointments.  By the time we got all that done and able to actually do some things, the guy that let us borrow the car had to take it back for work purposes.  We did get another vehicle a couple of days later, but it was one that I wouldn’t really trust to make the hour long drive to his house, plus another hour back.  While we were stuck, BJ came to visit us at my parent’s house.  He drove all the way over there by himself and when he exited the vehicle we found out that he was on crutches.  That’s the first time we had seen him with those crutches.

I am happy that we were able to invite him to my sister Cindy’s house for a party.  He had a pretty good time at that party despite being limited to what he could do.  He was never much of a beer drinker, or any alcohol for that matter, but I was always happy to have a beer or another drink for him.  When he left he was not looking forward to the long drive home, but otherwise he was happy that he made the trip.

BJ and I had an unusual friendship.  When we first met he was what you would call a ‘stick in the mud’.  He was serious about everything and rarely did anything to have fun, he worked almost all the time and didn’t laugh very much.  After hanging out with me for awhile he started changing and he loosened up a bit.  For his part in our strange friendship, he helped us with issues on the house, with my computer and with just life in general.  Things that I just couldn’t figure out.  He showered a lot of wisdom down on me, although I didn’t always follow everything he said.  Most of the time it turned out he was right and I ended up regretting it when I didn’t follow his advice. Our life could have been better if I would have followed some of his advice, but I thought I knew better and followed my own thought process.  I should have known better.

He was the one and only friend that I have ever had that I would so most anything for, legally.  Although he was more of a giver than a taker, he still needed things from time to time and I tried to do what I could.  Of course I couldn’t always get the job done, but I sure gave it a whirl.  Have you heard the saying that if you are in jail a friend will come visit you, but a good friend will be sitting next to you?  Well that’s the kind of friends we were.  Although we never did go to jail and did very few things that would be considered wild and crazy.

His 3 children, Jeff, Jen and Jake, all call us Uncle John and Auntie Lita.  Heck BJ even called me Uncle John most of the time, enough though he was about 6 years older than me.  Those kids are like our for real nephews and niece.  We have known them for so long that sometimes I forget that we are not actually blood related.  I still love them to pieces though.

We are going to miss him bunches and bunches and I hope that if there is such a thing as reincarnation, that I will be able to meet him again.  He was truly the only person that I have ever met that understood me.  Maybe he and Khany will stop by someday to have a drink with me.  A beer for Khany & I and a Diet Coke for BJ.  Even as ghosts, I’d welcome them both.

Barry Jacob Wand (BJ)

RIP BJ

 

 

 

 

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  1. Hi UJ,
    My deepest sympathy for the loss of your great friend. I know the pain your going through as I lost both my parents in 2011 within 50 days of each other. Last friday I lost a good friend I work with, todays his service. And a few years back, I lost a good childhood friend down in Killeen. It took me months to get over the grief of losing a loved one, but also made me look at life a little different. Now the only thing really important to me is each day i spend with my loved ones and friends. Even the asawa could see the change in me, in that the little things i use to worry about are no longer important to me except time with family and friends. So i cherish those moments together as I never know when will they or I will be gone from this world.

    • I suppose that when things like this happen, everyone re-evaluates their life. I never was one to worry about things that I can not control, but that “What if” factor always kicks my ass. I told Lita that if I die I don’t want people to be sad. I want them to have a party and drink a lot of beer and/or tequila with plenty of food. I don’t plan on leaving anytime soon, but as you say, you just never know.

  2. UJ what can I say? Two such losses in a short time are enough to make anyone reflect on life’s ‘What ifs?’. Sounds like you were good friends and you’ll have some great memories to help you through these tough times. Maybe if you reach out to his kids and let them know what a great guy their Dad was it will help everybody heal a little easier. Kids seldom get to zee the side of their parents you saw. They could probably use the support too, even if it’s only a few kind words. Here to talk if you need it.

    • Yeah it hasn’t been so wonderful around here recently because of those losses. His kids do know that he was a wonderful person. He helped them even more than he helped others and he did a lot of helping. I’m sure that I will be okay eventually. They say time heals all, but some things just take more time. This one will take awhile for me to forget, but I know I must and carry on with my life. I know he would have wanted for me to do that.

  3. Very touching piece. It might comfort you to know that even if you thought he was the giver, you gave him more than you thought you did. You made him want to go out of his shell and care about another human being. That is a testament to yourself as a person and as a friend. Some people touch our lives and leave footprints in our hearts. Treasure the memories.

    • I suppose that my feelings were that he gave me so much more than I gave him. Helping him come out of the shell he was in was something easy to do. I just hung around a lot and acted like myself. His problem was not that he didn’t care about others though. In fact he liked to help others, but at first wouldn’t or couldn’t interact with them very well. It definitely was not an overnight transformation, but by the time Lita and I left Okinawa in October 1985, he was a very interacting, helpful, joking machine. Damn I’m going to miss him.
      Emma thanks for checking out my blog. I really enjoy reading your stories http://emmblu.wordpress.com/ on your blog. You have, IMO, a very unique way with words. I can’t say that all my stories are going to be touching, or even good, but I try to express what I’m feeling at the time that I write each of them. Right now I have tears in my eyes and a smile on my face thinking about my best buddy ever and treasuring those memories.

  4. Sorry to hear about the loss of your BF. You shouldn’t blame yourself because life cycles around each of us. I lost my BF, my brother, mother and father all within a span of 7 years, and it seemed much more dramatic than that. Unfortunately we have no control over the cards we are dealt in life and you know for certain it’s not possible for everyone in the game to get the best hand. Hang in there UJ.

    • Randy I don’t really blame myself but it just got me to thinking about “IF” I would have done things different. You know, the “What if” thing. You see when we were stationed in Okinawa together, we did a lot of exercising because we were both on the weight control program. We were the kind of people that couldn’t stick with it alone, but worked well together. Well somehow we let that exercise program lapse. I don’t remember the reason, but IF I would have stuck to it and done whatever to make him hang in there, MAYBE he would not have developed diabetes to start with. As it turns out, he did. Me I didn’t develop diabetes but being overweight cut my military career a little short. Sure I got lucky and still got to retire, but it was under the early retirement program. He ended up quitting the Air Force after over 18 years of service, rather than put up with the weight management consequences of demotion. Sure the job he got afterwards was like Major General (O-7) pay (versus his TSgt (E-6)) pay, but the job market was not kind to him for long. That exercise habit was never established and he evidently never found another exercise partner. So “What if”? Who knows. It’s just a part of my grieving thought process.